What's left to say when you had lost everything?I remember staying on the edge of my bed,with tears falling down slowly on my cheeks..and I was recalling my first love and my memories that helped my soul grow..into pieces.Every year,same month,same day..same memories were appearing in my head like they really meant to hurt me over and over again for an eternity.
I had nobody to call nor talk to that could really understand me,since the "rope" of my only escape and hope broke into millions of pieces.But my only question was: Why did it all happen'?Why did he had to walk from all that we built in two years?I can still recall that day..it was an unusual cold day for that time of year.It was raining and the wind was blowing.We met at our special place beside our special tree and after a brief chat..he dropped the "bomb" : "You know,you are a very special girl,but there is someone that can offer me alot more than you,and I'm really sorry,but our relationship has to end here." I was heartbroken,no...I was devastated.I couldn't believe what I was hearing.He left in such a rush that I didn't had time to respond..and then I realized: it was gone...
We,human beings,tend to put our trust in the first person that we think we can trust with all our heart and love it beyond our boundaries without being warn that maybe someday all of this may be broken.We are trained to love with such passion and devotion that we forget about ourselves.We are capable to put our "love" on a place that used to be ours.The first place.Why?Because we think that we finally found someone that we can rely on..someone that is our other half.I thought that too until..that "someone" woke me up and I had found myself in a world that was actually "the reality".
It took me years to learn how to breathe,how to live again.I made a promise that I will never fall that hard in love again.I must admit,he was my first and my last love.When I lost him,my love died at the same time..and after all this time,I can't put my faith in any other creature that pretends to have a heart in his chest,I simply can't.This is how love works: we start as strangers,love deeply,madly and at some point something breaks and finally end again as the same old strangers...